To Write or Not to Write?


I have been fighting a rather silent battle for some days now: to write or not to write?

That question is deeper than first meets the eye. And the deeper you think about it, the more propelled you are toward the tail end part of the question.

Not to write.

So it’s cool not to write… hmm… so what do I do now, delete all my content? What? What?

Each time we write, we send a piece of ourselves out there, into the open, onto the internet. And this process could be exhilarating; thinking how readers will react to what you write, trying to anticipate their reactions. The whole brainwork could really leave you feeling drained.

I feel to have that oxygenated start as a blogger or writer or.., you have to care less what readers might think of your work. And remember, you’re your first reader, so you have to care less about what you think of your own work.

Personally, I’m the hardest on myself. You can picture me pacing, soliloquizing, asking if writing is what matters to my life right now, asking why I can’t just pass time like everyone else without feeling like I need to write something. It’s not like I’m getting paid for scribbling stuff, not yet. In fact, I just upgraded my plan to premium, so cash is actually leaving me. And getting paid in the blogosphere is even becoming more of a herculean task by the minute. So, why write?

Write to express? Bleh, that sounds more and more clicheric each day. So, why write? Because you can’t not write? That sounds twisted, but I think I’ve seen that expression somewhere. Yea, so people claim to write because they can’t stay away from writing or they are somewhat compelled to, like an OCD kinda thing.

That could be me, compelled to write. But why? For the flair? For the praise? Or maybe for relevance, self relevance. So can I say I write to feel important? That’s sick (LOL). Well, anything that strikes your fancy, right? But I won’t be surprised if truly I write to feel important. I mean, everyone is on to something. Some people hang out with friends to feel that sense of importance, some others go skiing or mountain climbing or whatever just to feel something. So it’s not a bad thing if I write to feel something good about myself.

But where do we draw the line, where does writing become a drug?

I guess that’s a topic for another time. As always, friends, thanks for reading. And remember, I read you too.


I enjoy writing on WordPress. I feel it’s got realer people

You’re a writer or you write sometimes. You must have battled with where to write at one point or another. You have accounts everywhere; Medium, WordPress, Quora, Tumblr. But which one is the best platform for you?

I enjoy writing on WordPress. I feel it’s got realer people, people who see the effort in creativity. I was active on Tumblr a while back in the school days, but I kinda got jaded with the never-ending posts and all, and also, Tumblr has to do with a lot of gifs. I don’t even know what’s up with Tumblr right now, I think I saw somewhere online it’s about to be sold by…

Though Facebook isn’t open-source, I used to post a lot on there, but they are a million times meaner that Blogging platforms. I could post something really detailed and get about a dozen likes. And you can’t even see it on any search engine. So yea, fuck Facebook sucks.

I’m not on Medium right now, I don’t even know what it’s like. Medium… sounds moderate.

There are a lot of these platforms popping up everywhere like popcorn.

“Are you on Pinterest? Are you on Instagram? Quora is a good place to get readers…”

Dude! Cut me some slack. So I should be everywhere on the internet because I want to write.

Sometimes I even feel exposing yourself on the internet isn’t such a good idea. I think of Googling my name Victor Enesi and I’m caught with fear. Who knows what I’m going to see? Lol.

What if I’m at an interview and the interviewer is like “Let’s look him up online, let’s see what he’s about.” And they check me up and see all these conflicting texts. *Facepalm*

Thanks for reading, beautiful people. Without you the internet wouldn’t make much sense. It would just be a bunch of cooled hard drives marking 1s and 0s.


Why do you write?

I asked this question in my previous post; why do we write? These days it is the most obvious questions that elude us the most.

Have you ever sat down to really ask yourself why you write? That’s if you write. Or I want to ask you now, do you write? And if you do, why do you?

I did some searching on the internet concerning this question, and I found out that people mostly write because they can’t not write. Doesn’t make sense, right? I mean, how can’t you can’t not write? Lol.

Seriously, people write because they are compelled to write. It’s like a spell for them, waking them up in the dead of night to go write on tree barks that bleed and anyone who drinks of the tree blood will be infected with the writer’s curse.

Okay, seriously, writing is an art. It is a way to express yourself. Writing is not just about stories, there are people who write computer programs, religious books, amid others. Or let me put it this way, storytelling is an art. And so is programming too. Anywho, point remains that writing takes some skill, imagination, creativity.

But the most important question is — why do do write on WordPress? Or what are the places to write on the goddamn internet?

I feel where you write is as important as writing itself. Are you rewarded for taking your time to write something that many people read? Or is it just a compulsion for compulsion sake?

Thanks for reading, friends. I always try to ask the difficult questions and find answers to them. Stay tuned for more insightful writeups.

The thing with writing


What does it mean to write? What does it mean to express yourself? Where is the best place to express yourself?

For me, writing should be a normal thing. It should be as normal as breathing, like another way to live; take a pen or face a white screen and just scribble. It shouldn’t be any harder than that. It’s not exactly rocket science. You got something to say, then type it away.

So what really discourages writer? I think writers are often discouraged by that picture in their head. They want to be the next J. K. Rowling or the next Stephen King or be like John Greeen. Well, ambition itself doesn’t kill but trying to lift a 11k kg truck by all means could.

It’s pointless trying to lift a 11k kg truck right? I mean, what do you want to show, that you’re the strongest? Those names up there, the big shots, they are 11k kg trucks that lift other heavy things. They didn’t become heavyweights out of a spell from some magic wand, but piece by piece. First the tires, the engine, the bodywork, and bit by bit the whole thing comes together.

I like to think that in anything you’re doing in life, discipline matters a whole lot. You got to suffer to smile later. You simply can’t have your cake and eat it. You got to get down to work, be you a writer, an engineer, a doctor, you gotta do the work. Most people don’t wanna do the work, that’s the problem, they just wanna look into some magic mirror and fantasise about that future self; famous, rich, celebrated. But sadly for most dreamers, reality doesn’t work that way, at least in 99.999% of cases.

Just look at JK Rowling, she wrote about the magic wand and the magical Mirror of Eriseld. Look where she is today.

The thing with likes


Likes aren’t easy to come by. You could do a lot of writing for a long while and get little more than scraps of reactions. It hurts when this happens, because on many levels we all want to be acknowledged, we all want to be liked.

Some creative writers might try to pretend that likes don’t really matter and that what matters is expressing yourself truthfully and adequately. But deep down we know that’s not exactly true.

We are social beings that get a chemical hit of encouragement anytime we or our work is being liked. That’s the way our brain works, it shoots itself with some dopamine to tell us that what we are doing is dope.

Personally, I don’t feel good when what I write isn’t like so much. In fact, I’m thinking day and night how my writeups here would get liked by hundreds and thousands of people. I bet everyone with a blog or site is thinking about this.

It’s not easy though, for your work to get the attention you think it deserves. You have to work out your strategy. And you also have to be consistent in what you do, and persistent too. Simply put, you have to not give up.