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Hey 15

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Hey,

Okay we can’t work. I get that. I’m even getting tired of this. I think I’m tired of thinking about what would have been. I’m tired of waking up memories about us. I guess all things must fade in the end, even love. It’s the pain that is hardest to deal with. Breakup itself doesn’t hurt, but the pain it brings hurts as hell. Did I tell you that I’ve been meditating? Yea, Aunt Rachel gave me the idea. Every day for the past one week I take out fifteen minutes to just breathe in and out. She says it will help me make sense of things. I think it’s working. I think I’m gradually letting go of you, of us.

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You’re always sorry. What are you sorry for? You see, that’s your problem, you’re always so sorry. Anything you do is a mistake you must be sorry for. You can blame me for a lot of things all you like, but you can’t blame for your sorry state. And I’ve told you, I’m not interested in talking or writing to you. I called you to tell you to back off. Look, I’ve moved on with my life and I advise you to move on with yours. And there’s no way we’re getting back together, don’t even dream about it. WE JUST CAN’T WORK! Get that into your head.

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Hey 14

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Hey,

Sorry I missed your call. I’m sorry but I did it on purpose. I just wasn’t ready to talk. I felt like our conversation would have been a mess if we talked. Can we just write to each other, please? I know you don’t even want to have anything to do with me, I know you’ve moved on, but I don’t mind. Anytime you write to me is fine. Look, I’m sorry for being like this. I’m sorry for being emotional, but this is the way I was born, this is the way I’ve always been. Do you think people change? Do you think I can become like you? Would we get back together then? Does my nature piss you off? Is that why you left? Trust me I’m trying to change. I’m trying to be indifferent. But it’s just so hard! I think people can’t really change at their core. I tried to change for you. I’m sorry it didn’t work out.

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Hey 13

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Hey,

I’m sad. I’m always sad. Mum and dad are worried for me, they think I’m depressed. And they’re right, I am depressed. My inability to socialize effectively is preventing me from knowing people to the level that we were. How do you begin anew? All the time spent calling, all the time spent feeling, the adventures, the risks. I don’t think I can do it all again, I’m just too tired for all that stress. Falling in love is so much work and I don’t think I have that energy right now. Do you ever get the feeling that we should not have broken up? Do you ever get the feeling that we could just make up and let the issues just go away whatever they were? Maybe this difficulty in meeting new people is a sign that we’re still meant to be together. Is it possible for us to get back to where we started?

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Hey 12

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Hey,

I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to get you angry with my last letter. Please don’t stop reading my letters. I promise I won’t say stuff that’d get you angry, promise. I’m in a confusing spot here, I think I’m having episodes of depression. I’ve been trying to meet new people since we broke up, but I’ve not been lucky. This is part of the reasons why I wanted to hold on to you, to us. I put a lot into what we had, you know, that’s why it’s so painful to see it all end. And a part of me still feels like fighting to get us back together. But another part of me feels it’s the end and you’re beginning to fade day by day. They say it gets better with time, less painful. Do you think that’s true?