You think I’ve not tried going out? You think I’ve not tried being out? I am an introvert! Do you know what that means? It means I have difficulties socialising. You know what I’m just realising? It’s not only me that doesn’t understand you. You too do not understand me. Three years and you’re still talking to me this way. You think I’m in this ‘shell’ by choice? Remember the day I called you to meet me at the bus station because I was too panicked to board a bus? You actually showed more sensitivity then. Or you were just blinded by love. This is me. I panic when I’m in a crowd. I was born this way. Do I wish I was different? Hell fucking yea! But there are just some things we can’t change.